MY ONE AND ONLY PAPA...

Losing a father; not having a chance to see him alive and converse with him for one last time is really far from the reality I could ever imagine.

Rewind on 07^th September 2016, I thought I am about to lose my father as he is fighting for his life. Hurriedly, I booked earliest flight so I can arrive early. My luggage was half full & half empty, just picked and packed few pieces of clothes and that’s it. I have arrived one hour late than expected arrival at airport. But good thing, I have arrived on time in the hospital. I still able to see Papa; he can still hear me; I was able to talk to him, and hold him. He was a fighter, a really good fighter where he battled out his life against death.

Spending nearly a month in the hospital was a terrible experience. I remember that I have just placed my luggage inside the hospital room, not able to freshen up myself and just want to see my father’s situation. How is he and to check how my mother is too. Even we were in the hospital, Papa still managed to crack jokes to us whether intentionally or unintentionally; maybe he wanted us to feel that everything is ok and to take things lightly.

Truth is I came home because I thought my father would not live longer but miracle came and we left the hospital with Papa alive and kicking.

Fast forward on 7^th of June 2019, my luggage was full; too much full where I have to re-pack and take out some things “pasalubongs” inside as I was over baggage. My mind is set for my father’s 80^th birthday where he would celebrate his natal day on his hometown. I was expecting my mom to welcome me at the airport and my stronger father back home.

The plane arrives on time earlier than expected; 45 minutes earlier; I passed the Immigration line and got my luggage earlier too which was a bit unusual. My mother was not there at the airport.  I had questions back then but I did not entertain it. The only question in my mind that time was how is my father. My head became full of wonders and worries when the car suddenly maneuvered to hospital. I do not know what will I do and say while my brother was talking to me. I just saw my mother crying upon seeing me. What she told me during that time? I still do not know and remember up to this day.

I was too late because even if I arrive early in the Philippines; I did not arrive on time for my father. My father was lying in bed at ICU room and fighting for his life again. This time; there is minimal hope of waking up again. I did not see it coming; I was not prepared at all. My mind was totally shut down when doctor was explaining to me what happened to my father. All I heard was Papa will be leaving soon. All I know is I prepared for his upcoming birthday and not on his death. The same day of my flight was the same day where he was brought to hospital. Although, I was early on my flight but I was one day late for him.

I was fully devastated and broken of having seen him on the same situation three years ago. Every time I am checking the time, it hits me when hours become minutes and minutes become second up to his last & final breath. The surroundings suddenly turned into black where I could not see anyone and anything except him.

My Papa who used to cook us appetizing Filipino and traditional foods and who used to tease me I am stout. He was not a perfect father nor a perfect role model. He has his own share of flaws too but it is ok, it is acceptable; he is human after all. My Papa who never holds any grudges to anyone, a man of few words and very good in numbers. My Papa who was a frustrated carpenter and electrician who often watches and criticizes other’s work. My Papa who loves biking, gardening, playing chess with neighbors and watching afternoon and evening TV series. My Papa who has his own style of snoring, own style of get-up and grooming.

And most importantly, my Papa who loves my Mama and never leaves her side no matter what happens; come what may as they say; be it in Mandaluyong, Zambales & Cavite.

Since my Papa is very good in numbers; from 09/09/2016 turns a sad reality on 06/09/2019 when death wins over his willingness to live longer.

If there is any way I could trade another day or another hour with my father, I would do. If there is any way I could turn back time, I would do. The pain is intolerable, incomparable and indescribable. 

Life throws a lot of punches but I still managed to stand up and stand tall and fight again but my Papa’s passing was not one of them.

It was very painful and difficult for me to see old couple walking next to each other or an old man biking along the street as I could not see my father strolls with my mother again or could not see my father takes his bike with him again.

Your wallet where I was surprised to find it out on your bag which I have taken as a remembrance from you signifies your life. Although I was a bit scared, I still open your wallet which does not have money inside and saw only IDs with your younger and recent photos. It only means that you were born empty handed and leave the world empty handed with only fond memories left behind with your loved ones. Those memories when you were younger, memories when you had your own family and memories when you aged and became grandfather.

I know it is time to let go of my what if’s, maybe’s and I wish’s as you are now with God’s loving arms; no more pains & sufferings. But I still could not.

Please help me to recover and heal my heart with full of regrets; and touch my soul with your caring hand & help me to understand that life has to go on. Allow me to say sorry for what I have done to you and for not coming home for the last two years which I promised that I will go for vacation every year. Dry up my tears every time I will remember you or if someone will share some stories regarding about you.

Please continue to watch over & protect us from any harm especially Mama, Ethan & Elli. Please guide me for whatever decision I will make and pinch me every time I will do something wrong. Allow me to say thank you over and over again for being my Papa and for those good memories we have shared one another.

Pa, fly high, you are now with our Creator peacefully. I will definitely miss you, Pa. Until we see each other again.

I will not promise but I will try that even a broken pencil can still write…

it is all about me, you and everyone :-): Live, Love and Laugh (Compilations of sayings abou...

it is all about me, you and everyone :-): Live, Love and Laugh (Compilations of sayings abou...: "It has been my passion to collect quotes, create my own quotes and eventually post it in Facebook so luckily I was able to retrieve most of ..."

Live, Love and Laugh (Compilations of sayings about life, love quotes and jokes etc.)

It has been my passion to collect quotes, create my own quotes and eventually post it in Facebook so luckily I was able to retrieve most of them and put it in one page for my personal reference.

These are the quotes that have been received “likes” for more than 3-5 persons and some are even received comments and various reactions.

I wanna share it with everyone also and for those who are not able to read my wall posts from FB. Enjoy and God bless everyone…

LIVE

Mathematics may not teach us to breathe oxygen and exhale carbon dioxide or to love a friend and to forgive an enemy...but it gives us every reason to hope that every problem; no matter how hard or complicated, Solution Exists!

Just for u: If plan A did not push through. stay cool and don't lose hope because we still have more letters in the alphabet..cheer up, I will always be here to back you up!

Life will never provide warranties and guarantees but it can only provide possibilities and opportunities..Just think positive!

To gain something, you have to lose or sacrifice something. But just make sure that what you lose or sacrifice will be worth what you gain.

Keep praying, it will come true. It may not be in the best package you wanted to receive but I'm sure it will be what God thinks BEST for you.

God never gives you something that you can't handle and never takes back anything without which you can't live

The things you DO is what really defines you and not what you SAY. You can tell people anything but you can only show them what's real.

Life is too short. So better to smile while you still have teeth.

There are no shortcut to any place worth going. Things worth having, don't come easy.

Not all blessings are created equal. Some blessings are temporary. Some blessings are permanent

"When someone pisses you off, learn to smile and ignore them. Why? Because that pisses them off more."

Real people are not perfect. Perfect people are not real. So it's either you love someone for their flaws or hate because they are real.

Be careful to spend too much time in "what if" because surely you could wind up missing out on the "what is".

It's hard to wait around for something that may never happen but it's even harder to give it up especially when it's everything you've ever wanted

Life is too short to hide feelings so don't be afraid to tell people how you feel. You will never know if they have the same feeling like you do.

"Complainers get more of what they complain about."

If you don't have money, don't confess "I don't have money" instead say "I'm temporarily broke". And if ever you are poor, don't claim it by saying "I'm poor" instead say proudly "I'm getting ready to be rich"

No matter how we try to be matured, we will always be a kid especially when we all got hurt and cry

Everybody won't understand everything because everything isn't for everybody. Get what's for you and let the rest go.

Face everything. Be strong. Things will get better eventually. It might be stormy now but it can't rain forever

Most of the time, we dream of something we can't even reach. People say it's stupid. But it's ok because that's what keeps us moving forward.

Failure does not mean you accomplished nothing. It only means you have a reason to try again.

God allows us to be happy but not extremely happy at all times because if He does then we will no longer remember and need Him.

Many men go fishing all of their lives without knowing that it is not fish they are after.

If you can't be a pencil to write anyone's happiness, then try at least to be a nice eraser to remove someone’s sadness.

Nakakatuwang isipin na may mga taong tumulong sayo nung panahong kelangan mo ng tulong ay sila rin ang mga taong hindi nanunumbat, nagbibilang at humihingi ng kapalit.

Don’t fear the enemy that attacks you, but the fake friend that hugs you.

If you know from the very start your rights, why would you be scared? Take what is rightfully yours and you will definitely on the right track...Be confident, you will win the battle

Listen to your instinct. No matter how dumb or silly it seems, because 99.99% of the time your instinct is right.

Admire another's beauty and let it inspire you because tearing them down will only show others just how ugly you really are.

You never know what is enough, until you know what is more than enough.

Sa buhay ng isang tao, pag alam mong niloloko ka na, wag kang papatalo, lokohin mo rin...para maramdaman niya kung ano ang pakiramdam ng naloloko...gago siya eh, eh di mas gago ka rin!!! patas na kayo ngayon!!! ano sa palagay mo?

May mga taong madadaldal, kahit ano pwede nyong pagkuwentuhan pero kung dumating sa puntong tumahimik ito, wag mo ng piliting magsalita dahil baka mapahiya ka lang. Isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito napuno na siya sayo!

Sometimes God's best gift is the one you never even dared to ask for but that just happened out of nowhere and feels so right.

Life's a book. You don't know what's going to happen in the end but you just have to keep turning the pages. Move on.

Who is more foolish, the child afraid of the dark or the man afraid of the light?

One day, someone showed me a glass of water that was half full. And he said, "Is it half full or half empty?" So I drank the water. No more problem.

People say "You don't know what you have till it's gone" But really, the truth is we know what we had, we just didn't think we ever would lose it.

Never mistake your regrets with your mistakes; mistakes are just lesson learned, regrets are things you wish you never did.

Be there when people need you, because in order to have friends you must first be one.

Always remember: Calling someone stupid won't make you any smarter, calling someone ugly won't make you any prettier either. So better to watch your words.

Refuse to worry. You won't gain anything by worrying. In fact, you lose precious moments that you can never get back.

Success cannot be measured only in achievements, but in lessons learned, lives touched & moments shared along the way.

Don’t make a permanent decision based on how you’re temporarily feeling.

Lesson learned: Never say “That won't happen to me.” Life has a funny way of proving us wrong.

If you stop dreaming, you also stop improving yourself, you don't want to take a risk for another step in a high end lever of success because you're scared that you might fall. There are mountains that are too rocky and difficult to climb but if you would trust your legs and feet that you could reach on top, it would be a lot easier.

If you stumble and make mistakes, that's not useless. Think of it as fertilizer. Sure it feels like crap, but it will help you grow.

God wants us to live like the grass. Even if it's stepped on, crushed, burned & cut; it always grows back even greener & stronger.

Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted. We should all learn just to be quiet at times.

Good things come to those who wait. GREAT things come to those willing to go out & make them happen!

We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

Your mistakes don't define you, they don't dictate where you’re heading, and they only remind you of where you have been.

With trials, we grow stronger in faith. With faith, we move closer to God. With God, we can do all things.

The grass is never greener on the other side, the grass would only be greener if you would WATER it.

Remember, it's not always what you say or do that hurts; it's what you don't say and things you try and hide that hurts the most!

Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest, it's about who came, and never left your side.

When one door closes, another door opens. Just don't spend your life in the hallway!

God isn't letting you fall, just trying to teach you how to fly, so have faith, and spread those wings!

When you're made to choose between two good things, don't just think of what you'll get when you pick one but think of what you'll lose when you pick the other.

Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, and most likely to impress people they don't like.

If ever you want to know how rich you are, just count all the things that money can't buy.

If you are sad now, you'll be later happy. If you are lonely now, you'll later have company. Because “for every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction!

"Ang paulit-ulit na pagpuna mo sa isang tao ay hindi nangangahulugang pagtutuwid sa mga pagkakamali nito bagkus nangangahulugan ng lantarang pang-iinsulto sa kanyang pagkatao at hayagang pagmamagaling mo."

Things don't always come so easy, you need to change and sacrifice sometimes. Otherwise, there's probably no point in trying to make it work!

"You will have nothing to lose if you have nothing gained."

"If only I could read everybody's mind, eh di sana alam ko na kung sino ang manloloko at kung sino ang may malinis na motibo."

LOVE

"The saddest thing that can happen is when one falls in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship."

"The hardest thing in love, even when you tried to choose the one who loves you, still your heart belongs to the person who hurts you."

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; afterall you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe, God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one; so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that GIFT...

 “Never cry for anyone in your life, because those u cry for don't deserve your tears & those who are deserving will NEVER let you cry."

A relationship is like a job. You have to work hard to get in it and even harder to stay in it.

Never pass a chance to say "I love you" to the people you care about because we aren't promised tomorrow.

Never place your happiness in someone else's hands, because once they're gone, so is your happiness

Why do people always say, "if we're meant to be, it'll be." Don't they know that without effort, destiny won't work?

(REAL)ationships don't need reasons to stay together, all they need is to stay together.

If you're "in love" with two people, remember: if you truly love the first, you would have NEVER fallen for the second.

Cry as hard as you want to. But just make sure that when you stop crying you NEVER cry for the same reason again.

Everyone you meet comes with a baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack.

If you were happy with the wrong one, just think how happy you will be when the RIGHT one comes.

If you admire the rainbow after the rain, then why not love again after the pain?!

No matter how serious life gets, you still need that one person whom you can be completely stupid with.

You can't laugh at the same joke again & again, so don't keep crying over the same thing over & over again. Cheer up!

There are only two possibilities why you are disappointed: wrong person or wrong expectation.

I believe in 2nd Chances & Last Chances; unfortunately, most people don’t recognize the difference between the two until it's too late.

There is always a huge possibility that a person can get attracted to another. But when you are in a commitment, you should discipline yourself.

"Single" and "In a relationship" are just titles; your heart determines your true relationship status.

"iloveyou" is better than "I love you"..you know why? Because there's no spaces for lies.

If you will notice, there's a HELL in HELL-O and GOOD in GOOD-BYE so don't be afraid in goodbye instead be careful in hello.

Flirting has two different meanings for those who are single and committed. For those who are single, it's their way of saying "I'm free" but for those who are in a relationship, it's their way of saying "I'm bored".

Promises are worse than lies. Why? Because you make them hope. Hope for something that you're not sure that you can give.

Kahit ipagsigawan mo pa sa buong mundo na mahal mo siya, kung iba naman ang nasa puso niya...paos ka na, bingi pa rin siya!

It is beyond reality to find somebody who will never make you cry. So do the next best thing, find someone who's worth all the pain.

Love is not blind...It sees but it doesn't mind.

Whenever you miss someone, look at the sky. Although, you might not see the person there, but you feel happy that both of you are under the same sky!

Respect other people's relationships. There are so many other available fishes in the sea so why mess with one that's already been caught.

It is simple as it is, you learn to speak by speaking, walk by walking and run by running; in just the same way you learn to love by loving.

Minsan talaga may mga bagay o tao na di talaga para sayo. Pero anong ginagawa mo? pinipilit, masunod lang ang gusto mo. At kapag di umubra, saka mo sasabihing "Oo nga noh, ang tanga tanga ko!"

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.

God gave us 2 hands, 2 ears and 2 eyes but why only 1 heart...Because He gave the other 1 to someone else for us to go find.

Women fall in love by what they HEAR while men fall in love by what they SEE. That's the main reason why most women put make up while most men lie.

MAS madaling maglakad pabalik sa taong nagmamahal sa‘yo… kesa tumakbo at humabol sa taong ayaw na sa‘yo

I never get jealous when I see my ex with someone else, because my parents taught me to give my used toys to the less fortunate.

Remember: When a woman cancels a date, it's because she has TO but when a man cancels a date, it's because he has TWO.

Love someone not because they give you what you need. Instead love them because they give you feelings you never thought you needed

A smile costs nothing but gives much. It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give.

"Ang MATA ay nasa harapan upang makita ang dadaanan, hindi para iyakan ang nagdaan.

Don't you know that time and smile is connected to each other. Sometimes, time makes us forget to smile and sometimes someone's smile makes us forget time.

When someone is so sweet to you, don't expect him to be like that always because even the sweetest chocolate you have ever tasted expires.

EX is called an 'ex' because they are EXtreme EXample of what you shouldn't have in the future.

LAUGH

Sabi ng Pangit na naaapi "What is your beauty if your brain is empty?" Sumagot si Maganda bilang ganti "What is knowledge is your face is damaged!"

Sa eroplano...Stewardess: sa mga pasahero,makaka experience po tau ng engine failure at turbulence.maaari po tayong mag crash. s mga mayayaman n nsa business class, may mga lifevest n nsa ilalim ng upuan. sa mga mahihirap sa economy class, sbyan po ninyo ako..Aba Ginoong Maria, napupuno ka ng grasya.

Walang kumpa kumpare...Sa malanding kumare.

Wag masyadong choosy kung hindi ka naman yummy

Single ka, single ako. Masyado ng maraming single sa mundo. Gusto mo bawasan natin ng dalawa.

Free ka ba? Pakisamahan naman ako sa psychiatrist ko. Sabi kasi nya dalhin ko raw ang kinababaliwan ko.

Nakalunok ka ba ng kwitis???Pag ngumiti ka kasi may spark!

"Di lahat ng pagod galing sa trabaho...Yung iba galing sa kuwarto.”

Hindi ka naman Kastila...Hindi ka rin naman Amerikano...Mas lalong hindi ka Hapon. Ang alam ko lang, ikaw ang sumakop sa puso ko

Kinabukasan matapos ang kasalan…
GROOM: Sinungaling ka! Sabi mo, virgin ka! Eh ang luwag-luwag na!
BRIDE: Gago! Lasing na lasing ka kagabi! Kay lola ka tumabi!

A friend in need can be a partner in bed.

Ang hindi marunong magmahal sa sariling wika.....

Kadalasan, sa call center naglipana...:-)

All the desirable things in life are either... illegal or expensive.

Pag may gusto ka sa isang tao at pinapakita mo naman pero hindi ka pinapansin. Wag mong sabihin na “MANHID KA!!”Hindi sya manhid, hindi ka lang talaga nya TYPE! Sana ikaw ang makaramdam!

Pag may lumapit naman sa iyong lalaki, hindi naman ibig sabihin nito na may gusto siya sa iyo, baka naman may kailangan lang...Kaya wag masyadong FEELING!

May mga taong gustung gusto mong ibaon sa limot....at may mga taong gustung gusto mo ring ibaon....SA LUPA

Guy: Ano sa english ang nasa laboratoryo ako at kasama kita?

Girl: Ano?

Guy: Eh di ano pa, I'm in LAB with you!!!

Husband: I don't know why you wear a bra, you've got nothing to put in it!

Wife: How about you? You're wearing brief, don't you??

According to an unknown source, 80% of men cheat in the Phils. while the rest cheat abroad! - from unknown

Guy: Excuse me, can you empty your pockets?
Girl: Why?
Guy: I believe you have stolen my heart...

Guy: I really love reading menu!
Girl: Why?
Guy: Because it has ME - N - U :-)

Guy: Do you have Bandaid?
Girl: Why?
Guy: Because I just scraped my knee falling for you.

"Do not do unto others what we did last night"

Pag ang “ex mo sa friend mo napunta. Wag ka nang magtaka. Kasi saan ba napupunta ang “basura”, sa “plastic” di ba? Pero kung sa relative mo napunta, yun ang tinatawag na “sagip kapamilya”.

GIRL: Hey, Bawal daw mangopya sabi ni Ma'am.
BOY: Hello, Hindi naman ako nangongopya sayo ah?
GIRL: Eeh Bakit ka tingin ng tingin sa paper ko?
BOY: Tinitingnan ko lang yung Buong Pangalan mo, Kung Bagay sa Apelyido ko.

Kadalasan mahirap matulog lalo na...Kung kagigising mo lang!

Ang taong walang trabaho, madalas....GUTOM

Q: What is the opposite of Laughter?
A: Of course, SEX, why? because laughter means "HA,HA,HA" while sex means "AH,AH,AH."

Q: Bakit daw mahahaba ang mga buhok ng mga multo at aswang?
A: Eh kasi kung kalbo sila.....Baka matawa ka lang...

'You cannot taste me, unless you take off my clothes' - "BANANA"

BAKIT kapag guwapo o maganda ang bumubuntot sa ‘yo, SECRET ADMIRER ang tawag… samantalang kapag pangit, STALKER? Ito ba 'yung tinatawag na Facial Discrimination?

 

 

 

 

BLOGS: What makes me Crazy in “Crazy Little Thing Called ...

BLOGS: What makes me Crazy in “Crazy Little Thing Called ...: "When i saw it trending in twitter, curiosity comes up in my mind. What is this “crazy little thing called love?” is all about. Is it a movi..."

What makes me Crazy in “Crazy Little Thing Called Love”

When i saw it trending in twitter, curiosity comes up in my mind. What is this “crazy little thing called love?” is all about. Is it a movie?, is it a tv series?, tv episode? so I immediately checked it through online.

Ah, ok so it is a movie, a romantic movie. I only have selected movies in my memory and most of them are romantic ones. And since it was trending in twitter, so better to check it out to find out why it is trending. I know that something on that movie would tickle my bones. I am definitely sure.

But after that, let me tell you one thing. I have a good friend who highly recommended that movie and kept on telling me and forcing me to watch it so I won’t miss half of my life. I told her “Oh, c’mon! I had lots of friends who had told me that this movie was awesome but later on it was a trash one.” Or maybe they just want me to waste my time.

Anyway, to cut it short, I downloaded it through torrent, (by the way, thanks to Torrent 2.2.1). I have been downloading a lot of movies through this application. And luckily, after a day of downloading, it was there 100% finished.

That same night, I was a little bit sleepy so I could not bear reading the English subtitle so I decided to stop it and continue on next day. It was only the next day I appreciate the movie. For me, it is the best romantic teenage movie that I have ever watched, something that everyone can relate into.

I really could not imagine myself, repeating all the scenes for how many times because it simply brings back my teenage years. I’m in my late 20’s yet I could not even control myself to shudder in delight (meaning kinilig ng husto). It started from M1 which I believe is a freshman high in Thailand then ends in M3 (since Thailand has Grade 7 so that would be equivalent into 3 in high school if you compare it in Philippines so M3 is 4^th year high).

It was A definitely must see movie, tandem of Nam and P Shone to watch out for and a hilarious antics and comedy lines of Teacher In. And since my friend is highly recommending it, I would 100% do the same thing. 

This made me crazy…and I want you to experience crazy - little thing called love….   

BLOGS: How Do I Spell L O V E???

BLOGS: How Do I Spell L O V E???: "“Kung pwede lang sanang piliin ang mamahalin, sana napili ko ng husto!” yan ang linya ko ng panahon na in love na in love ako kaso hi..."

How Do I Spell L O V E???

“Kung pwede lang sanang piliin ang mamahalin, sana napili ko ng husto!” yan ang linya ko ng panahon na in love na in love ako kaso hindi nag work out. 

Wala naman kasing tamang formula kapag in love. You just feel it, kesehodang sobrang tamis o sobrang anghang ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao. Walang keber, kasi mahal mo nga.

Pero kapag napuno ka at feeling mo walang patutunguhan ang relasyon ninyo. Mapapaisip ka na lang na “Teka, bakit ang tanga tanga ko noon? Dapat hindi ko yun ginawa. Dapat ito ang ginawa ko.” 

Pero nung time na yun, hindi mo naisip yun. Give ka lang ng give, ika nga.

When you realize that it’s not worth and it’s not gonna work out, ang magiging linya mo na eh yung nasa itaas na sinabi ko “Sana nakapili ako ng husto.”

Ang hirap ma-inlove, minsan, andiyang kahit na gutom na gutom ka, hihintayin mo pa siya para lang sabay kayong kumain. O kapag kasama mo naman siya sa trabaho, kahit pagod na pagod ka na sa trabaho, andiyang tutulungan mo pa siya para lang matapos agad.

Lalo na at pag birthday niya, sangkatutak na pag iisip kung gaano ka unique ang ihahanda na hindi mo iisipin kung magkano aabutin ang gagastusin ng uniqueness na yun. Eh mahal mo eh, kung pwedeng nga lang buong income mo ng isang taon, mapunta lang sa engradeng uniqueness na yun. 

Meron pa nga akong isang kaibigan na panay ang kulit sa akin kung ok ba yun hinahanda niyang surprise sa girlfriend niya. Birthday kasi ng gf niya eh first time nilang i-cecelebrate yun as bf gf. Pinag-isipan niya talaga ng husto, ni ultimong toothpick na gagamitin ng mga inimbitahan niya, may decoration saan ka pa? Pero anong nangyari, noong naghiwalay sila, sangkaterbang “Sana hindi na lang siya”, “Sana iba na lang”, “Sana hindi ako tanga” at kung anu ano pa.

Pagkaraan ng ilang taon, nagka chat kami, tinanong ko siya. “Kumusta na, anong balita na sayo?, “Ok lang naman, eto may asawa na” ang sagot naman niya. So ganun ka pa rin ba kada birthday ng misis mo, engrande pa rin ba? Ang sagot sa akin. Isang malutong na "Hahahaha" with smiling emoticons pa ha. 

Ganun lang talaga ang buhay, tatawanan mo na lang pagkalipas ng ilang mga taon. Ang mga kahibangan o kabaliwan mo sa pag ibig. Pag nakahanap ka na ng iba, lalo na kapag nakapag asawa ka, isang alaala na lang ang lahat. 

Meron pa akong isang kaibigan. Hindi naman siya mahal nung girl, may mahal na iba. Yung mahal niyang iyun eh hindi rin naman siya ganun kamahal. Magulo ba? Ako din naguguluhan sa kinukuwento ko. Yun na nga, itong kaibigan kong ito, sobrang tinding magmahal, lahat gagawin para lang mahalin siya nung girl. In short, tanga. 

Dumating pa sa point na muntik na siyang magpakamatay kasi nga hindi siya makuhang mahalin ng taong mahal niya na iba ang mahal. Ang ending, natauhan din siya.

Kung dati ang parati niyang sinasabi sa akin “Hindi, iba ito eh. Ibang feeling ito, masyadong malalim. Mahal na mahal ko siya. Hindi ko pa ito nararamdaman kahit kanino.” Tanungin nyo ako kung anong nangyari dun sa kaibigan kong iyon after 3 years. Hayun, may asawa na, pero hindi dun sa girl na may mahal na iba kundi ibang girl na. Tinanong ko siya “O, anong nangyari dun sa nararamdaman mo before?” Sabi niya, “Hehehe”. As usual parehas nung isa kong kaibigan with smiling emoticons uli.

Hindi nga ba't ang sarap pag-antugin ng dalawang kaibigan kong ito. Minsan lang daw nila naramdaman iyon pero after ilang years, iba na ang sinasabi, tinatawanan na lang ako. Consistent sila sa pagiging inconsistent ika nga.

May mga ibang kwento naman na pang MMK, yung mga tipong ‘you and me against the world’ o kaya yung mga tipong “Sana Dalawa Ang Puso Ko”. Pero siyempre mas gugustuhin ko na ang ‘you and me against the world’ kesa naman dun sa isa kasi pwede pang mabago ang word na “against” at palitan ng “agree”, yung dalawa  kasi mahirap na, baka madagdagan pa ng isa o dalawa pa uli, eh di tatlo o apat na yun.

Pero bilib din ako sa napagsasabay ang mga karelasyon, may 1, may 2, may 3 at may 4. Iisa lang pala ang sikreto doon, dapat iisa ang tawag mo sa kanila. Consistent dapat. Kung “babe” ang tawagan nyo ni Number 1, dapat applicable din yun kay 2, kay 3 at kay 4. Kung ang idinahilan mo kay Number 1 ay nag over time ka kaya di mo siya nasundo sa opisina dahil na kay Number 2 ka nga, aba eh dapat lang na ganundin ang idahilan mo kay 3 at 4 dahil kung hindi, aba at napakalaking problema nun kung sakali at kung magkabistuhan, “Patay kang bata ka”.

Hay pag-ibig! Saan ka kaya sa mga taong nabanggit? Isa ka ba doon sa mga engrandeng magregalo kapag inlove, isa ka ba sa halos baliw kapag na inlove o isa ka ba sa mga weather weather lang, kung meron eh di meron, kung wala eh di wala.

Pero iisa lang ang ibig sabihin nito. Masarap ang magmahal at masarap ang mahalin. Pagkatapos ng lahat nang napagdaanan ko sa usapin ng pag-ibig, ito ang pinakamahalagang aral na natutunan ko.  

“Never place your happiness in someone else's hands, because once they're gone, so is your happiness.” 

Oo nga at masarap magmahal at masarap mahalin pero dapat nagsisimula ang kaligayahan sa sarili mo mismo, dahil kung hindi ka masaya kahit na single ka, papaano mo masasabing masaya ka kapag  may karelasyon ka na?